But I said that I wasn't going to be political here. I'd like to think that I can vacillate, but I think that any readers that I get would be annoyed by that. You don't want to hear insightful criticism and then a little literary wit from the same person. They don't seem to feed each other very well.
I'm humoring myself a little that I count as insightful. But I'm learning. (Either I'm learning how to be insightful, or I'm learning more accurate labels for what I am. I'm not sure.)
Anyway, in this long time off, as I've said, I've been working on my preliminary examination. It's funny how overly-difficult tasks like this will force you to be mean to yourself. I don't just mean physically - no sleep, no fun, no movies, just work work work - but you also start to notice what you can't do, where you fail, where you're weak. I have a lot of weaknesses, and I think I know them a little better. And I think I have a better understanding of my strengths, too. They aren't as vast and unchallenged as I thought before. I'm a bit shaken by that experience, I think, but better off.
Anyway, I'm back at this again, and I mean to stick to it. It's a strange kind of public thinking - you don't really know if anyone reads you, and you don't really know if it ever really matters. It's like being naked and blindfolded in a public place. You might hear someone - someone might make a comment - but you could certainly have a large silent crowd around you watching you. Or you could certainly be standing alone.
I'm not sure if I'm succeeding at being quirky. Maybe.
Anyway, that stupid frog thing I put down at the beginning of the post is really useless. I'm not sure that I want to admit that I wrote it. But I did, and I can't bring myself to try to destroy it only because I've created so few things lately. It's like if you could only pee four times a year, you might spend a little more time staring into the bowl, watching the little bubbles circle and pop and swirl away.
I've been meaning to read more of the Frogblog lately. I just like that title. I think that's related to what I was saying yesterday about politics. It might not be. And it's certainly a little intimidating having such a huge and varied list of links next to my words. I might need to cut some of that. A lot of these websites are places that I've been to once.